It wasn’t a stranger, but a
friend.
A cup of coffee, just a cup
A dance, one dance, and I waved
goodbye.
This man friend of mine,
He smiled nice, stayed employed, taking
me out for coffee.
With a simple welcome to my
house,
I made a nice meal,
But my kindness, mistaken for
hints;
And my friend, my friend, turned
foe.
Driven by lust, locked the door
behind me,
And I was left with scars!
I had been betrayed! By one who
knew me!
A friend!
Someone I called friend, turned
beast!
Betrayed, heartbroken, wasted,
dirty,
I could not let this happen to
only me!
I too became an animal, man to man, beast to
beast.
My trust had been breached!
I needed revenge, and revenge I
did! To all men who my path crossed.
My fellow women, judging me,
They don’t know me! They don’t
know why! Yet they judge!
They called me bitch, a female
dog!
They called me a slut, as if my
legs could not shut!
They called me a hooker, and
other ugly names.
But all I wanted was to be
unforgettable,
A memory, a wound to every man.
A wrath, madness, to other women.
Each morning I woke up, a joker
by my side.
Oh I glittered in the wind; desired
by my fellow animals.
At 3.00am I rose, removing the
arms and legs that trapped me,
I made myself a bath, flavored
gels, assorted oils, perfumed water, to wash away his smell;
To become me again: Clean, head
high, sweet scent,
Walking down the streets,
Knowing I was still dirty,
Knowing the many nights, I had cried
myself to sleep;
I hated me! I hated me.
I wanted to jump, jump out of me,
to leave me alone, to be gone, gone with the wind, never to return.
I fell into a numbness.
The only tree I could see, took
me by its branches, and held me up to the breeze,
And once again I got life,
I found peace, in the clean fresh
breeze.
There I found her; I found God in
her; I loved her.
I found me; I found God in me; I
loved me.
Stench made scent, dirty made
clean,
The unforgivable was forgiven, forgiven
and forgotten.
I forgave him, I forgave me.
Befado.